I am not sure if I will be able to word this well with so many emotions wrapped up in it. Multiple women, some being long time friends and some I met for the first time, came together to create the most amazing fund raiser for myself and my family. I can not tell you what was raised last night since I have not been privy to that information until it is all done, but I can tell you that even if no monetary funds were raised, my spirits sure were! I am amazed everyday by the outpouring of love I continue to received. I arrived at the fundraiser and quickly notice how full the parking lot was. It took my breathe away and forced me to remain in my car till I could regain full control of my emotions. When I walked in, I was overtaken by awe when I realized how much work went into this and it was all accomplished in less than three weeks!
Tomorrow I will receive news on my cat scan and the decision will be made on whether or not I will continue with this current treatment. Unfortunately, after much research, I have come to the harsh realization that we are nearing the end of chemotherapy treatments. If this one is not showing improvements (which I can not imagine that it would not!) I will be discussing alternative treatment. Whether it is immunotherapy, macro beads, proton therapy or vaccine treatment, I don't know. What I do know is all of these require travel and can be very expensive becoming a financial burden on my family. My point is, the fund raiser couldn't have come at a better time!
Let's all regroup for a second. Everyone continues to ask me how I am feeling followed by a "really". Yes, I have lost a lot of weight, my energy is not what it was 15 months ago, and if I am not barfing all my hard earned nutrition out, I am having constant daily diarrhea. I know, way too much information! I have tried to protect ya'll from this......cats out. Besides all that garbage, I feel really good! I do not feel like I have cancer in my lungs at all and the tumor must be positioned just perfect not to be pushing on my liver capsule, which would cause a great deal of pain. These two things alone are God! I am uplifted everyday by friends and family and filled with joy by all the love I have felt. Unless I am actively pooping or barfing......I am not going to complain. Now I have to go. Bailey (my lovely dog) just barfed three times and I have to clean it up. Can we say, "Ewww!" Love out to you all!
Love you and miss you! Wish I was there to sit on your front porch with you!
ReplyDeleteI would love to hear more about the silent auction...you have a gazillion people who care about you and your family. You know, this wouldn't be done for just any body!
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If you're not barfing you're having constant diarrhea? Um, can I get a rain check for dinner Saturday night? I can't imagine that Thai is going to make either one more pleasant!
ReplyDeleteStill, maybe you can save money on your next flight by simply asking to be seated in the lavatory--tell 'em you'll be barfing and pooping the entire journey, and they won't argue and may even cut your fare down.
I'm still waiting on the study that proves that martinis cure cancer (how can they not?), but in the mean time I think you should self-medicate. Of course, your sister will tell you that I'm not referring to any of these false gods--no "appletinis," "chocolatinis," or other foo foo crap served in a martini glass. Gin. Vermouth. Olives. That's it--tumors don't stand a chance.
Cynthia doing the sale and silent auction for you was a pleasure. God smiled on us and brought people to sell, shop and donate. The success was overwhelming, and the money is still coming in! What a testament to the power of friendship and community. You are so very loved.
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Check into Cyberknife -- it's new here in Austin -- It was recently in the news -- Ask your doctors about it -- Love you,
Tina
Hey Cynthia...if you need a travel partner, check with me...I need a girls weekend or trip! I would love to go with you.
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