Crap!

Well, this most certainly ranks right up there as one of the suckiest days ever! That is of course minus the company, Pho, and cinnabon! Yup. It sucks. Not sure if that is strong enough of a word to describe it. I am sure you all can be much more creative and donate some better adjectives. Let's see. My CT results sucked. My tumor in my liver went from a 10 cm tumor to a 12 cm tumor. You know, he is getting to the point that I will not be able to find shoes for. My lung tumors? We lost count at 18 "suspicious" marble shaped things. I swear I am living in the twilight zone! So, no chemo today. We are starting a new/old treatment tomorrow. You guessed it! I am starting oxolyplatin as my infusion and Xeloda as an oral chemo. Oh yes, you guessed it again! You all get to hear all about my hands and feet again! Lucky dogs......He wanted to start it on Wednesday. I told him Wednesday would be difficult since I have ACLS......would you be willing to start it tomorrow? Sure. So, here we go gang! As Dorry would say.......just keep swimming, just keep swimming. I'm gonna go eat something cold....because I can! Love you all!

no, I did not go missing ;-)

I my gosh! It has been forever since I have blogged! I didn't realize until someone pointed it out to me......so sorry! Since that blog I have had chemo, which once again, really isn't too bad. my back pain has mostly resolved....thank God! I got a doctors release to actually get a massage. They wouldn't do it in case they actually spread the cancer by rubbing my back....HA! Give a break! Really! I am more worried about the lotion they use on my poor, sensitive skin. My sister and niece came out to visit. Very fun! We all had a great time! I will confide in one moment that was very difficult for me. My niece had mentioned she had a pretty formal eighth grade graduation ceremony in the spring. So I suggested, for fun, to all take her to a dress shop and have her try on dresses so that she (and her mother) could get an idea of what would work for this big shin-dig. After dress number 25 it hit me that I may not be here to take my own girls shopping like this. Ouch! Did this hurt! I actually had to leave the dress shop to regain composure.
So, here is the deal. I am meeting with a woman from Texas on Friday to discuss what she calls "cherry picking" our care. She is a twelve year survivor of stage four colon cancer and has basically directed her own care through mets to liver, lungs, and brain. I receive my CT scan results on Monday and begin a new phase of planning.
In the mean time I did my PALS class this week and ACLS next week and schedule my first couple of shifts the week after. I am excited to get back to work. Call me crazy! Know that you are all such blessing to me! God bless you all!

Happy New Year 2011!

I know....I'm slacking. As a family we spent a couple of days in a hotel before New Years. Had a great dinner at Nono's, the kids enjoyed the pool and I enjoyed not having to clean up after everyone. I just want some sweet little lady to come in daily to make my bed.....that would be nice! We then went up to Glenwood Springs for the weekend. The kids had a blast running, playing games, going sledding and eating ice cream every night. Lucky Dogs! I absolutely enjoyed the company, food and trip to the hot springs. I even enjoyed getting our (girls against the boys) tooshies handed to us on a platter during our Trivia pursuit game. Haven't laughed that hard in a very long time!
We returned from Glenwood Sunday night and used the next two days to get ready for school to start. The girls were pretty excited to get back to school to see their teachers and friends. I was ready for some down time. My lower back has been killing me and my body needed some extra sleep. I took advantage of nap time and heated up my teddy bear to put on my back. It has been really bothering me since Sunday and I don't quite know why. It has actually taken all week to get Christmas decorations packed up. Pathetic.
So here is the plan....I think I will receive two or three more treatments and then a PET scan. That's it! Cancer news is not so exciting. Still have mild rash on my face and chest and I battle fatigue all over my body. Other than that, this is a piece of cake! Better news, I am doing my ACLS and PALS at the end of this month and then back to work! I am looking forward to seeing my girls and boy and caring for others in a way you all have cared for me. Hope you all had a great New Year! Love out to you all!