great news!

It took a good friend of mine to say, "Hey you haven't blogged in a while and so much has happened!".....basically. It has been a crazy weekend/week for sure. It's like I popped out of chemo yuckiness and haven't stopped since then. Ok, that is not totally true. I tried to stop for a whole day....it didn't happen. I got to hang with friend, spend time with my sister and nephew and get some quality time with my kids. My father in-law came in to town and the boys went hunting for a week. Came home with a cow too! So, a lot has happened and I am not going to bore you with all the details and just give you the highlight of my weekend. On Sunday, surrounded by many loving friend, my girls and I got baptized! It was AWESOME! I was so excited, I could hardly sit still! I am so blessed to have the opportunity to see my girls get baptized as well. Amazing. God has blessed me in so many ways and this proclamation was exactly what I needed to do. I need to put a shout out to all of you who came to support me! It was pretty cool to have my own cheering section! Without my faith in Jesus Christ I would not have made it this far. He has kept me strong and given me many earthly angels to help me along the way. Blessings to you all!

chemo week

I find it difficult to believe I just received the same chemo I received two weeks ago. I had some nausea, but not nearly as bad, and I tossed chunks only three times. I had to go into Rocky Mountain for a neulastin shot on Wednesday because my white count was 3. Still slightly nauseated and running a temperature of 100.4, they kept me for an hour for hydration and anti nausea goods. My temperature so kindly dropped with the first 500cc's of hydration saving me from a whole battery of tests. After the last 500cc's, I felt better so my port was deactivated and I was sent home. My biggest issue at this point is the insomnia that creeps in around 3am every morning and the leg/hip pain that seems to be the perpetuating factor. That is why I am blogging at four. It gets to the point that I have to get out of bed and move around.
My oldest daughter came home from school yesterday and informed me that there are 7 families at Powderhorn dealing with the evil C word. They are selling paper ribbons for a dollar that the student can buy and then color the appropriate color according to type of cancer. She took five dollars to buy a recorder and chose to use it for the ribbons instead. From what she told me, one of the families has lost the battle and the proceeds will go to them. My heart aches that someone is suffering through the loss of a loved one. On a personal level, my heart breaks seeing my ten year old understands this possibility. I am extremely proud to see her realize that her five dollars can go for something purposeful. What a kid! Saige, on the other hand, is still in her lovely world of where pretty pink ponies eat purple butterflies and poop out rainbows.....exactly where I want to keep her for now!

Great weekend!

We had such an amazing weekend. We went to Glenwood to stay with dear friends and really had a great time. Ate amazing food, good conversations and beautiful weather. What more can you ask for? The kids all played so hard they slept past Mondays alarm clocks! Good for them. I am sitting here now drinking my tea and mentally preparing myself for chemo. I leave in 15 minutes......do I really have to go? I suppose so......Well, I am going to eat something before I can't! Later!

Yup! Still here!

I haven't felt much like blogging for the past few days. If I did, it would have gone much like this: type, barf, sleep, type, barf, sleep, type barf, sleep. And what if I fell asleep on my computer and my hair caught fire? Or what if I barfed on the computer, then fell asleep on it. And then it would surely short out, catch my hair on fire, ultimately burning down the house. So, out of concern and safety for my family and surrounding neighbors, I held off.
Anyway, I am doing better today. I started chemo on Monday. Most of the concoction that is being use is similar as the other before except for one swap. I traded out the Oxoliplatin and traded in Irinotecan. If either one of those are spelled correctly, it is miraculous. I was serious vomitis and icky on Tuesday. Wednesday seemed better but I was still very tired and slept most of the day. Thursday I attempted a trip out to Walmart. This did not go well, made it back to the pharmacy, sat on the benches (giving my mom some time to shop) and then we HAD to go. Today I feel a lot better but still carrying a lot of nausea. Movement, head turning and car rides make me crazy nauseous. Mom is here scooping up the piles of barf. Everybody say Hi! She is waving right now from her position on the floor! God bless her!
Next chemo session is on the 18th and then two more after that we will have a CT done to see if anything has gone amiss. Sorry litle @#$%#$%^.....but ya just gotta go! Love you all

next plan

It has been difficult to actually blog the information I received. Part of me expected it, another part was hoping for better news. My CEA's, which are my tumor markers, have nearly doubled and they believe my cancer is spreading and growing. At first, my doctor wanted to wait for three months to see what would happen with the lymph nodes and the tumor. After picking my jaw up off of the floor, he changed his tune and we are starting chemo on Monday. We will be doing chemo every other week and then a CT in 8 weeks to see if it working. Technically, we are starting at square one but only with one tumor. So, I feel good about this. I ask that you continue to keep me in your prayers. This is going to be a long hull but we will get through it.