Not everyday is going to be easy.....

This morning the kids went for a play date......probably the best day for it. I now know what it is like to have an over flowing amount of emotions that can burst from the body like Mt. St. Helen's. I never thought I had space for all that! But it is out.....I am glad. And the kids weren't here to see it. I knew that they were building as the days are getting closer to the PET scan. I am terrified the results will not come back as hoped. Please pray for me on Monday. Pray that they only find 3 tumors in my liver and nothing else. Pray that I can hold it together for my own sanity and that of everyone else.
Just so you know, we all went out to dinner (sisters, niece, nephew and mother in-law) and had a wonderful time! Good to end a day on a positive note. Thank God for family and friends! I am now very tired and hope to sleep well tonight. Love you all!

Oooooo......ouch!

I went to bed last night wondering why my right shoulder blade was hurting and woke up today (at 5:30 am) wondering why my deltoid muscle was hurting and then it dawned on me......I think I pulled a couple of muscles playing Wii bowling! Wii bowling? You gotta be kidding me? This is from a girl that used to work out 5 days a week! So, today I have a plan. I am going to pull out my 2 pound weights and start building some real muscle. So, next time you see me I am going to be bald, buff and beeeeaaaauuuuutiful!

Big outings today!

Today I woke up a little sluggish but worked my way out of it with food and tylenol. By one o'clock I was itchen to get out of the house! We all got our showers in, dressed and decided to go to see Princess and the Frog. We were about an hour early so we went into Sports Authority just to window shop and came out with some super cool hats for when I go bald. :)You just wait, I will look so cute! One of them actually has head phones built in for an IPOD. Pretty cool! And another has red braids. Laughed pretty hard at that one! Then we went to the movie. It was very cute for those who have not seen it. I have to say this all wiped me out and I came home with a temperature.....hmmmmm. Still well worth it. Dinner and a bath and off to bed for me! Hope you all had a great day!

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas everyone! My sister made it into town and the the other will be coming down tomorrow. I am so excited to watch my kids open their gifts and very glad to have family around! Pray for a strong and temperature free day. I have now had FOUR of them and they make me very happy. Simple things in life. We should all enjoy them. Keeping it short tonightto take of you know what for the you know who's.

We are getting our white Christmas!

Ya! What a great day to stay in my p.j.s! OK. Truth be told I got up, got showered and put on clean p.j.s! I felt great all day, yet it being my third day feeling pretty good.....didn't want to push it. So, today I was a lazy girl. I did accomplish one thing though. I put together my Kanser notebook and actually read everything! Now I am educated on all side effects and all my papers are well organized. Isn't that great? I will sleep well tonight! Mrs. Social worker called me today. They assign one for all patients. She ask me if it was a good time to talk. I said yes since all I was doing was reading all the information given to me by the center. She acknowledged it was a lot of reading and I told her it was surprisingly contradictory. She didn't know what to say to that. So, Mrs. Social worker asked me if there was anything she could do for me before my first chemo treatment. I said, "I don't know. That is a very general question and I don't know what kind of services you provide." That was fair enough, right? I mean, if she really want me to answer that I would have said, "Take my cancer away.....forever! AWAY! You said ANYTHING!" But she seemed like a nice enough person so I showed her mercy :). Please pray that HE will show me the same with all the side effect. Love you all!

chemo teaching

So, today I had my chemo teaching......at 8:00 in the morning! Ouch! I brought along my personal comic relief and my very own stenographer. It was perfect! The nurse filled my head with so much information I seriously thought I needed a nap afterward. So get this. One of the medications will give me a severe sensitivity to cold and may cause neuropathy. Small sacrifice for survival, right? OK. I can't walk outside without being covered from head to toe, especially across my mouth. If I inhale the cold air it could cause severe pain and may end me up in the ER. I can't even open up my own freezer or refrigerator without proper coverage. If I reach in the frig and grab something it will feel like I just grabbed a slab of dry ice. Isn't that something? I can't drink anything colder than room temperature. So, here is my plan. I will always wear a scarf and I will clip some gloves to the refrigerator. That way I will be able to eat at any time I wish and I will trudge forth. I was informed Thursdays were breast cancer treatment days(in case I wanted to join them) and I asked, "what day is colon cancer day?". They currently don't have one but I will work on that! Did you know National Colon Cancer Month is September? And our color is blue? Picture this. Me sitting with all the pink gals in my blue shirt! HA! Would it be so wrong to say, "My cancer can beat your cancer!"

10 things to be greatful for.

At 3:00 am this morning I sat in my living room fighting aches and pains and yet another blessed fever. As I sat there I was thinking of a few things I am greatful for. Now this list is not going to include the obvious, such as God, friends and family. So lets have fun with it!
1) gotta love my new combo drug of tylenol and advil, Mmmm.
2) massage chair-this comes in handy when I am feeling all achey
3) the Christmas lights on my Christmas tree-you gotta see them, they rock!
4) multi-grain cheerios-the only thing that seems to sound good these days.
5) my email to Dr. Oz-oh yea, I went there!
6) the shower-great place to cry and nobody knows it, ha!
7) blankets-for when the shivers won't go away
8) my front porch-step onto it and I instantly recieve my daily dose of sunshine! yummy!
9) barf buckets-when my children use them correctly :)
10) music-especially Christmas music!
I hope you are all enjoying christmas break so far! BTW I so enjoy all of your comments. They are so encouraging, and sometimes very funny!