This morning the kids went for a play date......probably the best day for it. I now know what it is like to have an over flowing amount of emotions that can burst from the body like Mt. St. Helen's. I never thought I had space for all that! But it is out.....I am glad. And the kids weren't here to see it. I knew that they were building as the days are getting closer to the PET scan. I am terrified the results will not come back as hoped. Please pray for me on Monday. Pray that they only find 3 tumors in my liver and nothing else. Pray that I can hold it together for my own sanity and that of everyone else.
Just so you know, we all went out to dinner (sisters, niece, nephew and mother in-law) and had a wonderful time! Good to end a day on a positive note. Thank God for family and friends! I am now very tired and hope to sleep well tonight. Love you all!
im with you!!!!!! love you like a sister and i pray to god all is well xoxoxoxo
ReplyDeleteAn ccassional outpouring of emotion is necessary even when we don't have trauma happening. Every now and then, we all have to let it out. I'm thankful that a PET scan exsists for you because we are going to find out that those are the only tumors and they are smaller than we thought. Then the radiation technology will shrink them. :) I love you and will be waiting to hear how it went.
ReplyDeleteHi there-wishI had been there for you. You are always trying to be so strong for you , the kids, John and everyone else that this was bound to happen, How about a punching bag!!
ReplyDeleteLet it go more often and then each time may not be so tramatic. Fear is the worst of all feeling because there is nothing you can control. Anger is expected and tears are needed for release of the stress so don't be so strong for others. We need to cry and yell and scream with you as well. love you very much and the pet scan will be just the ones in the liver, I am sure. they don't dare go anywhere else because I said so!!!!!!!!!!!!mom speaking.
I'm praying, praying, praying!!! What else can I do for you, the girls and/or John??? Sarah
ReplyDeleteHello My Friend ~ You have all of my prayers, Cynthia. I can imagine that the PET scan looms over you...I am banking on no other tumors and the liver tumors getting smaller...oh happy day! Remeber, my phone is at my bedside if you need to call any time. Love you ~ Sara
ReplyDeleteCynthia...go ahead and get those emotions out. I too had a pet scan and the one good thing about them is that you get great drugs..valium! It was really relaxing amid all the stress!! I am praying for a clean scan.
ReplyDeleteWe're all sending our love, prayers and positive thoughts that Monday will have good outcomes for you .Wish we could be there to give you a big hug or help. If there's anyway we can help from out here just let us know.Lot's of love from the three of us!
ReplyDeleteCynthia.....I am so sorry to hear that you have colon cancer. CANCER SUCKS!!!! We are all praying for you and your family. I smile reading your blogs and have shared with my kids your faith and humor...God has great plans for you. If we can help you and your family in anyway, please let us know. Kevin is very sad for Sierra
ReplyDeleteHi Cynthia! I haven't seen you since Saige and Gwendolyn were in Mrs. Hawbaker's class together, but heard about the cancer from Kim Espinosa, who Marcia has for preschool this year. (She also told me about your blog.) I have seriously been praying (and fasting) for you, girl! Your blogging is awesome, by the way!!! I will keep following and praying. You are an amazing woman and my new hero! Also, if you ever feel led, our church (Activation Ministries) offers private healing prayer times every Tuesday night starting at 6:30. Let me know if you'd like more info. Christ's blessings and power to you!!!
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