Plans are set

Today was the first day I did not feel I needed a nap! Isn't that something? Yesterday I felt so wiped out I could barely make it back to my bed by noon and today .....no nap. It's a trick, I tell you! Anyway, got up and got the kids off to school. Then I got mysef slightly presentable and off to see the oncologist. I walked in and it hit me like a ton of bricks. The minute they said hello, I teared up and could hardly hold it together. My appointment was at 11:00am and I sat waiting for 45 minutes in the mist of falling apart. Do you know what I thought when I walked in? To myself I said, " Look at all these old people! What the @#$%%% am I, at the age of 37, doing here?!!!! And why the @#$$%% am I sitting all teary eyed waiting amoung them?!!" Not very nice thought, I suppose. John and I eventually made it over to the puzzle to take our minds off of everything (which seemed to work), then the med tech so rudely interupted to bring us back to a little room to leave us once again alone with our thoughts.......for a very long time! At one point John said, "At least they could have left us with the puzzle if they were going to make us wait again, but noooooo!" I laughed so hard at that! Well, here is the plan. Friday morning I go in to have my port placed. I so can't wait! Then, on Tuesday I go in for a teaching session on my treatment at 8:00 am. They said I could bring anyone I wanted.....anyone want to go with me? We could make it a party! Then I go back on the 4th for my PET scan. You all realize I have to starve myself for all of this stuff.......getting good at that. First chemo treatment is officially set for Jan 6. Thanks for all the comments, they are all so encouraging and many of them make me laugh. You are all becoming my life support and I love you for it! Have a great night!